The Journey.

As I have said before (many times) and will say again, this has been the hardest school year of my life. Yeah, my short life but none the less..my life. Senior year is hard. I think I am having a hard time right now because there is so much that I expected to be happening right now that isn't. I expected to be going to ORU mid-August, expected to be friends with certain people who I am no longer close with, and just expected some relationships to still be around. Life is such an odd thing. I expected these things to be there without a doubt. Yes, I had the "maybe Jesus will change things, and I will be okay with that" mentality but I also had the "I REALLY hope He doesn't" mentality as well. And.. it looks like I got more of the first assumption. So. Much. Change. Change has been something that I have feared almost my whole life. Those who know me very well know that I have moved over 10 times in my life, lived in two states, attended almost every schoo...

I just arrived home from Oral Roberts yesterday and wow, I must say...  I really love the place. I really really do. It's so scary though. The idea of packing my life up and moving 900 miles away from home is so frightening. It's going to be okay though.  I have been realizing as these last six months of school creep up on me that the lifestyle I desire so badly, calls me to give everything up.  Yes, I understand. Jesus calls everyone to do this.. But, it's becoming reality for me. Very recently I had to give up something that is and was so wonderful. For the sake of Christ. Whether that wonderful and great thing will happen again is not in my hands and I guess I am completely learning to be okay with that. I am sad and I wish there were something I could do about it but there isn't. The only thing that I can do is continue to push on. Continue to push onward to Jesus. This brings me to my favorite verse,   Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already a...