The Journey.

Recently at my church we had this gathering that goes on once a year called Holy Convocation. It's basically a gathering of believers who spend 27 hours seeking God and spending time in His presence. AKA my favorite time of year. It's definitely fun to just sit back, turn my phone off and worry about one thing for a moment, spending time with Daddy.  This year, I was able to stay for a few hours one of the days and just spent time reading Psalms. I was reading the ones that straight up praise the Lord. They're so great! One that I read that Jesus just pointed out to me and really made me think, pray and dwell on was Psalm 147:11. The Lord takes pleasure in those who fear Him, in those whose hope is in His steadfast love.  Wow.  As I read this all I could think of was Jesus standing before me asking me "Where is your hope, Selina?"  I think so often in this fast paced life it's all too easy to just say "Oh, absolutely. My hope is in the God."...

      2013 has been a great year. It also went by extremely fast! I can't believe we are hours away from a year that my friends and I have dreamed about since kindergarten. We would say "2014 is Soooooooo far away, can you believe we are graduating then? We have such a long time!" Boy, did time fly. I am SO excited for this new year because that does in fact mean that ya girl is graduating!       I know everyone says the quote "Last I never would have guessed where I would be now." and I really can't agree more with the popular opinion. My life has taken a complete 360. If you would have told me on January 1st, 2013 where I would be today I would probably laugh and tell you that it will never happen.         This year has been great though. As I look back on it, there really isn't anything I would take back. 2013 involved so many great people, so much tough pruning, lots and lot....and lots of laughter, smiles and butterflies and som...

    So to say this Christmas season was different would be one of the largest understatements of all time. This Christmas season was filled with just a little more stress, tears, and questions than I can ever remember. With one of the biggest storms we have seen in years, leaving so many without electricity even up until tonight and family stuff that drove me nuts, this year was definitely one to put down in the books.      But to say that it wasn't great would just be unfair and untruthful. Sometimes in the midst of emotions and stress with a little confusion thrown in; I forget how incredibly thankful I am for all the tough times. These past few weeks weren't the hardest ones I've ever experienced but, they definitely were not the easiest. I can honestly say that Jesus has used them to the fullest to break me down, teach me more and make me need him, desire him and fall in love with Him even more though. There are so many things that I hate to forget and try ...

One thing that I have to continue to tell myself this past month is that Jesus never fails. When our plans are destroyed, He uses that to give us an even better plan. A plan that isn't going to fail, won't be easy and will benefit us much more than the original one ever would. Jesus is so faithful in this. When we realize that He DOES know what He is doing things get so much better. I always have to remind myself of this. Daddy's got this.       This week has made me want to leave high school so badly. The drama and immaturity sometimes astonishes me. I just wish people would realize that in a few months, it's all over. We get a diploma and walk across that stage. After May 31st you might stay in contact with a couple people at the max but everything else fades away. It's so frustrating to stand around and watch people get so consumed in something that in a few months will be completely irrelevant. My biggest desire is just to leave something that wil...

Ever since some point in July, I've learned how to be vulnerable and actually be okay with the fact that love is good, pain is okay and it's okay to show your feelings sometimes. Definitely not something I've completely mastered outside of the walls of my house but hey! Everyday is a learning process. I've learned that life is so much better when you let yourself fall in love!  Fall in love with a person, people, pointless little things that make up your day, your bestest friend, and everything good. I've also fallen in love with slow dancing with my baby brother. Moments like that make me want to stop time and soak everything in. Jesus is so good and I am so blessed. So, today is a Taylor Swift kinda day! Because love is good. And it's okay to act like a complete girl sometimes. ;)  http://youtu.be/w1oM3kQpXRo   One of my favorite Taylor Swift songs recently. Loooove it :)  Oh, also... Catching Fire comes out on Friday. WOOOOO! 

Coming home from ORU this past week has made the future seem so much more real. I just filled out a form, like many other seniors to order graduation tickets, had a meeting with my guidance councilor to enroll in LCC next semester, and I'm realizing how precious everyday at Waverly High School actually is because I have... 6 1/2 months left. That is not a long time at all. So, basically life is moving. It is crazy. I am always busy with work, school and family. This all adds up to me thinking about the future and just scaring myself.  I get so excited sometimes when I think about next year. I think about having fun with my roommate, studying to help fix people, eating at chic-fil-a, and worshiping with a body of students that are passionate for The Lord. Then, after a few minutes of being happy and excited I get so scared. I think about the flip side of things. How hard my classes will be, how much I will miss my momma, how I won't be sleeping 1 ft away from my baby sister and ...

I just arrived home from Oral Roberts yesterday and wow, I must say...  I really love the place. I really really do. It's so scary though. The idea of packing my life up and moving 900 miles away from home is so frightening. It's going to be okay though.  I have been realizing as these last six months of school creep up on me that the lifestyle I desire so badly, calls me to give everything up.  Yes, I understand. Jesus calls everyone to do this.. But, it's becoming reality for me. Very recently I had to give up something that is and was so wonderful. For the sake of Christ. Whether that wonderful and great thing will happen again is not in my hands and I guess I am completely learning to be okay with that. I am sad and I wish there were something I could do about it but there isn't. The only thing that I can do is continue to push on. Continue to push onward to Jesus. This brings me to my favorite verse,   Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already a...