The Journey.

As I have said before (many times) and will say again, this has been the hardest school year of my life. Yeah, my short life but none the less..my life. Senior year is hard. I think I am having a hard time right now because there is so much that I expected to be happening right now that isn't. I expected to be going to ORU mid-August, expected to be friends with certain people who I am no longer close with, and just expected some relationships to still be around. Life is such an odd thing. I expected these things to be there without a doubt. Yes, I had the "maybe Jesus will change things, and I will be okay with that" mentality but I also had the "I REALLY hope He doesn't" mentality as well. And.. it looks like I got more of the first assumption. So. Much. Change. Change has been something that I have feared almost my whole life. Those who know me very well know that I have moved over 10 times in my life, lived in two states, attended almost every schoo...

Preface to this post: I am in no way shape or form a theologian that has figured out the bible, I am just a 17 year old girl that sometimes just gets smacked in the face by the Word of God and desires more than anything to understand the heart of my Father.  This morning I rolled over as my alarm clock was blaring, hit the off button and grabbed my phone as many Americans do now. I opened my bible app because I had actually woke up on time and the verse of the day was this: Galatians 5:14 For the whole law is fulfilled in one word: "You shall love the neighbor as yourself." Awesome! I loved that word and felt so encouraged to begin my day so I clicked the convenient button that said "Read Whole Chapter" and what I didn't know was that I should have just put my seat belt on and prepared for a heart check from Jesus, aka "getting smacked in the face by the word of God" (this is a GREAT but TOUGH thing most times). As Galatians 5 goes on Paul begins...

I have been trying to figure out a way to post about the recent changes in my life but couldn't do it.. so, I figured the best way is just to lay it all out. I am not going to Oral Roberts anymore.  In the fall I will be attending Huntington University on a full ride scholarship. Which is an incredible blessing that I will forever be thankful for! It's a wonderful thing to not have my thoughts consumed with how I will pay for school. Jesus coordinated the whole thing for me in such a way that left me in awe of Him once again, possibly more so than I ever have been before. This was NOT in my plan. I did not want to go there, not even the smallest fraction of my heart desired it...until I felt that is where I needed to be.  It's a long story about how it all went down but basically, I turned down the offer to apply for the scholarship back in September then a week before the interviews I was laying in my bed spending some quality time with Jesus and there it was, the voice...

I think one of the most challenging things about being a senior is change. The inevitable topic that sends shivers down my spine. I find it so odd that I can travel across the world but when it comes to going to college and moving away from my mom the slightest thought makes me want to cry. Yes, there are definitely aspects that I can't wait to get away from. I.e my busy life, responsibilities, the occasional screaming at home however, when it comes down to it these things make me who I am and are a big part of my life. In the moment I have to wake up to start my busy day I may dread it but as soon as the day is over, I get kissies from my sweet brother and mom and lay down to cuddle with my precious old puppy I can't help but thank God for my crazy life that He has so gracefully given me. I love it. So, why does everything have to change? This week has given me so much time to think on this issue. After forcing myself to visit another college and do a scholarship interview, I ...

Recently at my church we had this gathering that goes on once a year called Holy Convocation. It's basically a gathering of believers who spend 27 hours seeking God and spending time in His presence. AKA my favorite time of year. It's definitely fun to just sit back, turn my phone off and worry about one thing for a moment, spending time with Daddy.  This year, I was able to stay for a few hours one of the days and just spent time reading Psalms. I was reading the ones that straight up praise the Lord. They're so great! One that I read that Jesus just pointed out to me and really made me think, pray and dwell on was Psalm 147:11. The Lord takes pleasure in those who fear Him, in those whose hope is in His steadfast love.  Wow.  As I read this all I could think of was Jesus standing before me asking me "Where is your hope, Selina?"  I think so often in this fast paced life it's all too easy to just say "Oh, absolutely. My hope is in the God."...

      2013 has been a great year. It also went by extremely fast! I can't believe we are hours away from a year that my friends and I have dreamed about since kindergarten. We would say "2014 is Soooooooo far away, can you believe we are graduating then? We have such a long time!" Boy, did time fly. I am SO excited for this new year because that does in fact mean that ya girl is graduating!       I know everyone says the quote "Last I never would have guessed where I would be now." and I really can't agree more with the popular opinion. My life has taken a complete 360. If you would have told me on January 1st, 2013 where I would be today I would probably laugh and tell you that it will never happen.         This year has been great though. As I look back on it, there really isn't anything I would take back. 2013 involved so many great people, so much tough pruning, lots and lot....and lots of laughter, smiles and butterflies and som...

    So to say this Christmas season was different would be one of the largest understatements of all time. This Christmas season was filled with just a little more stress, tears, and questions than I can ever remember. With one of the biggest storms we have seen in years, leaving so many without electricity even up until tonight and family stuff that drove me nuts, this year was definitely one to put down in the books.      But to say that it wasn't great would just be unfair and untruthful. Sometimes in the midst of emotions and stress with a little confusion thrown in; I forget how incredibly thankful I am for all the tough times. These past few weeks weren't the hardest ones I've ever experienced but, they definitely were not the easiest. I can honestly say that Jesus has used them to the fullest to break me down, teach me more and make me need him, desire him and fall in love with Him even more though. There are so many things that I hate to forget and try ...