The Journey.

To sum this summer up in a measly blog post would  not begin to touch the impact these last few months have had on my heart. I think it is safe to say that God completely changed my life this summer. Completely is a big word, yes. I think in the beginning of June I didn't know what to expect. I was finishing the hardest year of high school and was not doing so fabulous. I knew that I had three "Vacations" in store for the summer but, in all honesty I didn't know how my heart would be after all of them. I learned so much this summer. Here's a few key things that I can honestly say God reminded/taught me this summer: 1. God is GOOD. He is always good. There is no bad part of Him. He is always the provider and He always loves. This summer I found His love once again. His perfect never failing love surrounded me as I was away from home, in a foreign country and especially in these last few weeks where I just don't know what the next step will be. If you haven...

I really don't even know how to express what has gone on in my life over the past four weeks. Since I have been home from Honduras so many things have changed for me. Life seemed to have thrown itself into fast forward mode and is just now slowing down so I can attempt to breathe and understand what is happening. I have learned a whole lot and I can say with all honesty this has been one of the weirdest, best, awkward, exciting, frustrating and challenging months I have experienced in quite some time. I am still putting my mind around all that has happened and allowing the many, many emotions (or perhaps none at all) I feel daily to draw me closer to my savior. I recently stumbled over one of my favorite verses that has always made my heart happy because I can relate to it despite all of the craziness. It is Philippians 3:12-14. My favorite version is the message version which says " I'm not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my wa...

There are some things that I will never ever understand. Particularly in my life right now things such as: 1. Why are some great, fabulous, wonderful and dare I say 'perfect' things placed into your life only to be moved away.. Or why do they have to leave? 2. Why do people not always mean what they say and if they do mean it why do humans second, third and fourth guess it? 3. Why does being vulnerable scare the absolute living day lights out of me? I will probably never be able to come up with answers for questions like these. I will never know why the sky is blue either except the fact that, that is how my Daddy made it.  The being vulnerable part is probably my biggest "problem" And somewhat sums up question 1 & 2. It scares me because of the things that have been placed before me in my past. My story with my real biological father, previous step father, any boy that I've let into my heart, even friendships that have just hurt, being bullied... All of it ha...