The Journey.

Ever since some point in July, I've learned how to be vulnerable and actually be okay with the fact that love is good, pain is okay and it's okay to show your feelings sometimes. Definitely not something I've completely mastered outside of the walls of my house but hey! Everyday is a learning process. I've learned that life is so much better when you let yourself fall in love!  Fall in love with a person, people, pointless little things that make up your day, your bestest friend, and everything good. I've also fallen in love with slow dancing with my baby brother. Moments like that make me want to stop time and soak everything in. Jesus is so good and I am so blessed. So, today is a Taylor Swift kinda day! Because love is good. And it's okay to act like a complete girl sometimes. ;)  http://youtu.be/w1oM3kQpXRo   One of my favorite Taylor Swift songs recently. Loooove it :)  Oh, also... Catching Fire comes out on Friday. WOOOOO! 

Coming home from ORU this past week has made the future seem so much more real. I just filled out a form, like many other seniors to order graduation tickets, had a meeting with my guidance councilor to enroll in LCC next semester, and I'm realizing how precious everyday at Waverly High School actually is because I have... 6 1/2 months left. That is not a long time at all. So, basically life is moving. It is crazy. I am always busy with work, school and family. This all adds up to me thinking about the future and just scaring myself.  I get so excited sometimes when I think about next year. I think about having fun with my roommate, studying to help fix people, eating at chic-fil-a, and worshiping with a body of students that are passionate for The Lord. Then, after a few minutes of being happy and excited I get so scared. I think about the flip side of things. How hard my classes will be, how much I will miss my momma, how I won't be sleeping 1 ft away from my baby sister and ...

I just arrived home from Oral Roberts yesterday and wow, I must say...  I really love the place. I really really do. It's so scary though. The idea of packing my life up and moving 900 miles away from home is so frightening. It's going to be okay though.  I have been realizing as these last six months of school creep up on me that the lifestyle I desire so badly, calls me to give everything up.  Yes, I understand. Jesus calls everyone to do this.. But, it's becoming reality for me. Very recently I had to give up something that is and was so wonderful. For the sake of Christ. Whether that wonderful and great thing will happen again is not in my hands and I guess I am completely learning to be okay with that. I am sad and I wish there were something I could do about it but there isn't. The only thing that I can do is continue to push on. Continue to push onward to Jesus. This brings me to my favorite verse,   Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already a...

I guess it's about that time. The time where my heart aches, longs and breaks for Guatemala and my baby. I want to be there so bad. Not that I haven't for the past two weeks but there's a point where it gets real. I guess I realize that wow, I'm actually not there anymore. Super weird... I know. But here I am, missing my love like no other and thinking about my life, future and Gods plans. I would be a complete liar if I told you that I know what's going to happen with my life for the next few years. I mean I can tell you until I'm blue in the face what I would LOVE to do, what I think is going to happen or even what I'm praying will happen... But that isn't always how it works. I guess I'm just in complete surrender to whatever God wants me to do. As I sit here and think about Alejandra and the kids down at CANICA, I only want and truly desire one thing and that is to leave everything and anyone I've held onto and serve. But, (there it is.. The ...

On Friday I spent 2 hours of my morning combing a little girls head with a lice comb. Her head was infested with eggs and honestly, I would have done it 33 more times if need be. I loved doing that. It has to be a terrible state of living to constantly itch and scratch at your head. It is also an endless battle because with 34 kids, little treatment and lots of mattresses Canica is basically a paradise for lice. It's one of the things I pray about when I pray for my loves. That it would end. It's such a little thing but as I have learned and been reminded of recently, God cares about the little things too. I spent the rest of that day just loving my babies. It's what we are there for. One on one individual love is not something the kids get to receive everyday because of how many children are there versus the amount of staff. I don't mind at all being the mommy or sister that is so desperately needed. That's for sure. :) On Friday afternoon, we had beauty day. This ...