The Journey.

I can't even explain how random this may be but, when you're in love.. random is kind of a second language. I am in love. I am so incredibly blessed to be in love with someone who makes the sun shine a little brighter on gloomy days and knows how to make me laugh when absolutely nothing seems funny. This guy, he is really something special. He takes care of me when I am in the deepest of sorrows and smiles with me when everything is right in the world. It's been a few years since I first met him and we have definitely had our ups and downs, our relationships that can't really be labeled successful, our laughs and our tears but now, being in a real and serious relationship with him, I realize that our past regardless of how stressful and painful it may have been, was so worth it. When I say this man is special it's an understatement. I can think of hundreds of times years ago when he would share his dream of changing his country with me, his love for Christ and...

The thing I have noticed about my life the past few weeks is that it is constantly 24/7 filled with missing at least one person. I think the person I most frequently miss is my Papa, which is a no brainer, followed by (in no particular order) my grama, my family, the kids in CANICA, my best friend, my boyfriend, my puppy, even my fish...Yeah, I even miss Tough Lips (that's our fishes name). I am really tired of missing things. I found a book in the bookshelf of the spare bedroom at Grama and Papa's house titled something along the lines of: "Tell Me What It's Like To Be Big" It sucks. That's what I thought when I first picked it up. I know, super depressing that Selina thinks it sucks to be big... but that is just how I feel right now. Yes, it doesn't always suck and I will admit that. There are certain things I love about being big like, getting a paycheck on pay day, being able to travel the world, going to bingo with my family and so on. But, there ar...

Feelings I remember being nervous over a month ago about coming. I was nervous about being away from home, flying alone, being with a boy I like, being with the kids for so long, Jesus changing my life and most of all, I was nervous about coming back. Now that I am currently experiencing the last worry, I understand why that was my biggest one. I was so nervous about coming and now, the meat thought of stepping off the plane to rejoin my "normal" society makes me cry. I have been sucking all my tears in today and yesterday as I said goodbye to my beautiful kids at CANICA, the family that helped me get around here and last but not least my incredible boyfriend. It's been two days full of "goodbyes" and I know they are actually "see you soons" but that fact doesn't make these next few months easier.  I don't completely understand this past month yet. I am not sure if I will any time soon. All I know is that this has been the best month of my ...