I just really love Him, okay.

As I have said before (many times) and will say again, this has been the hardest school year of my life. Yeah, my short life but none the less..my life. Senior year is hard.
I think I am having a hard time right now because there is so much that I expected to be happening right now that isn't. I expected to be going to ORU mid-August, expected to be friends with certain people who I am no longer close with, and just expected some relationships to still be around.
Life is such an odd thing.
I expected these things to be there without a doubt. Yes, I had the "maybe Jesus will change things, and I will be okay with that" mentality but I also had the "I REALLY hope He doesn't" mentality as well. And.. it looks like I got more of the first assumption.
So. Much. Change.
Change has been something that I have feared almost my whole life. Those who know me very well know that I have moved over 10 times in my life, lived in two states, attended almost every school district in the Greater Lansing area and have just had so much change in my little life that I just became so fearful of it. (Those moves and schools are something that I can also say I am thankful for because it made me who I am today.) It's kinda crazy that my heart's desire is to be a missionary in all honesty. Jesus has a sense of humor.
I just don't know how to handle all of these broken expectations and changes other than to hand them over to Jesus. He's the main point of this post. Despite all of the sadness, confusion and craziness that goes on, Jesus remains the same.
Yes.
The same all the time. Can we just pause for a moment and take that in. The same.
Today. Yesterday. Forever.

Jesus has a plan for all of this. When I am confused, He has complete clarity. When I am sad, He is my joy. When I am overwhelmed with craziness and busy schedules, He is my peace.

That is something to celebrate for sure.
I love Jesus a lot. I would be a train wreck without His constant comfort.
Psalm 103 is what my best friend sent me this morning to remind me again how great Jesus is.

Let all that I am praise the Lord;
    with my whole heart, I will praise his holy name.
2 Let all that I am praise the Lord;
    may I never forget the good things he does for me.
3 He forgives all my sins
    and heals all my diseases.
4 He redeems me from death
    and crowns me with love and tender mercies.
5 He fills my life with good things.
    My youth is renewed like the eagle’s

....and that's just the first 5 verses. He is good.
I graduate on Saturday and my open house is Sunday. That is so scary! Pray for me. Haha! Really, I appreciate it!

Side note: I went to a Kim Walker-Smith/ Jesus Culture concert on Sunday and oh. my. gosh. It was phenomenal and I haven't stopped listening to the album since. (Currently listening to it..lol) Seriously, if you've never been to a concert like that....Go! It's worth it. Kim Walker-Smith's album "Still Believe" though....It's so great. Download it, stream it, check it out because it is wonderful.

I'm sure this is only one of the many blog posts that will be happening this week and the next few weeks. That is if life slows down, which it never seems to.
Life goes on.

Love, Selina
P.s. I realized that I had comments disabled this entire time on here! I turned them on tonight. So, if you feel like it go ahead and leave me a comment. They're also anonymous unless you choose otherwise so leave your name too. :) 

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