In the deep water

Originally written in 2016 in some melancholic state of mind 


In the deep water is where my heart lies.
Where the mixture of tears and sadness collide.
There is a touch of madness along the great abyss.
Is it you that I need, or is was it this all along?
I can't do this alone, take this great test.
Is fate what we want or the grand plan?
Whichever way we swing, someone feels pain.
But, is this really all for some gain?

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