Donde Me Encuentro

My dearest Guatemala,
There is nothing in this world that has captured my heart and captivated my thoughts quite like you have. From the moment I laid my eyes on your people and land, I was hooked. An irrevocable love and passion were instilled in my heart by our creator that would draw me closer to you. I have spent the last six years of my life with the underlying pursuit of one thing - to come back to you. The beauty of our relationship is that through my time spent in your land, I feel more full. I feel as if the Lord, the one who handcrafted both of our existence, uses your people to remind me that He is good. A concept that may sound odd, but makes perfect sense to me as it is something I have experienced time and time again. This enthralling experience that is inexplicable leaves an insatiable taste in my mouth for more. As the months of distance pass between us, I long to be near again. In a few short weeks, I hope to return.

I hope to embrace the people who have grown in a culture that is different from mine but share a love that is equivalent.
I am eager to embrace the young girl who calls me 'mami' and squeeze her like she has never been squeezed.
My heart anticipates the laughter shared at midnight while laying in bed with the girls I call my little sisters and my friends who are so dear to my heart.
My tongue is ready to speak the most beautiful language that has ever been laid upon my ears once more.

I can only pray that you would welcome me once more with open arms, a sister in Christ, excited to share in this reunion once more.

Love, Selina

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