The Scandal


I'm sitting at my gate in the Detroit airport and it still hasn't hit me that I will be spending 26 whole days in the country that I love with the people I love even more. This is the life. Sometimes in prayer and just contemplating life, I get lost in the question of why. Why me? Why am I allowed to do this? Surely, I am so not worthy of this. I make the dumbest mistakes, talk back to my parents, have had a  few too many boyfriends, swear like a trucker occasionally yet He chose me. It's all in the scandal of grace, I suppose. Praise God for that scandal. I can't wait to step of of that plane, arrive at my destination and breathe in the air that my lungs long for all year round. I can't wait to walk into the orphanage and hug the little children that my mind daydreams of from the time I wake to the time I sleep. This is a privilege. This is a gift. 
Why me? 
I don't know, because Jesus is freaking wonderful and I love to say "yes". It is not because I am worthy, but because He is worth my yes. 
So, as I sit here in the airport and remain in awe of the thousands of people who come through with different stories and lives I remember that Jesus cares about each one and that He has got the whole world in His hands (feel free to sing that catchy tune). He's got me, as I travel on this crazy new journey of mine and He's got you wherever you head today. 
Life is freaking beautiful. Live it. 

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