It's kind of hard.

It's kind of hard. 
It's Thursday night and words will never be able to describe what I have experienced so far. God has shown me so many great things, wrecked my heart again, used me like never before and has just blown me away. I am so excited about what God is doing in Honduras. He is shaking a nation one child at a time. I am in awe. He is so so good. 
Today I had a few opportunities to lead some classrooms to Jesus. What... 
That was a new experience. Yes, I've told people about Jesus. But, honestly I can say I've never really lead anyone to him. Leading a classroom of over 60 children to Jesus was something I could never have imagined. It definitely taught me to rely on the Holy Spirit in a new way. Placing every breath and words in His hands to bring glory to His name is intense. I can say I had so much fun though. Allowing Him to work through me is the best thing ever. So today was great. The first classroom we went to I shared Emcee responsibilities with Judah, the second I did it alone and the third we were reunited and had lots of fun! God is moving here that is for sure. These kids want change for their lives and country. It moves me. 
One thing that sits on my heart each night before I go to bed that almost makes me sad is the fact that I go home in 3 days. We all do. Jesus is going to still move through the people that is for sure, but we won't be here to single handedly pray and love on these people. It's tough for me to walk away from these kids who God ties my heart strings to. I know why He does, so I can be the prayer warrior in their life.. But, I do wish with all my heart I could hold them longer. Hold Miralè longer. It makes me long for my future to be here faster. But I know this is my job at home as well. It's hard. I'm sure leaving on Sunday will be very hard. I know when I get home that I will say goodbye to some of the people I've grown to love very much. Some I won't see because of we will be thousands of miles away from each other.  Some I won't see for a good while because of school. It actually is really hard. 
But, I know Jesus has a plan. I know He holds me in His hands and I know that everything will work out according to His will. So, I will put my trust in Him. 
I'm very excited  for tomorrow though. I'm emceeing again. Nervous, yeah, a little. But I know it won't be me speaking. So excited is more like it. 
It will be great. ☺ 
I really am excited for my future though. It's so interesting to think about. To do something that fills my heart with Joy and makes it overflow every single day for the rest of my life..... Mmmm... Yup. That sounds like a plan. ☺

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