Wrecked.


For this is the day The Lord has made and we will rejoice and be GLAD in it. 

Today was phenomenal. I don't have words to describe God's goodness. His mercies. His faithfulness. None of it. Today we traveled to two schools in Comayagua. One high school and one elementary school. I had the opportunity to share my testimony in these places. In the high school, after we were all done I had the opportunity to braid a few girls hair and just talk. We talked about family, our favorite things to do and even typical teenage girl things like boys. 😏 
I had a great time. We went to lunch at a plaza and did some street ministry, inviting everyone to La Nueva Honduras. My team felt pulled to an old woman sitting on a bench. She told us that she could not walk without pain and that she faints sometimes when she walks too much. The Holy Spirit was THICK. We prayed over her many times and asked her to set her cane aside to walk in faith. She did. She did without pain. She won't ever have that pain again. Jesus is good. 

This was all leading up to one of the most memorable moments in my life that will stir up my heart forever. 

We arrived at the elementary school and I was thrilled. Children are my passion, my calling and they just know how to wreck my heart. We went through our skits and my testimony and Gods presence was there. It was that awkward moment when the alter is open, our team is waiting and no child wants to admit they hurt. (At this point I can imagine God smiling at the things to come) after a minute or so one little boy stood up and then Matt (our group leader) grabbed the hand of a little girl. This little girl ran to me with open arms. At the moment of embrace tears streamed down her face. We stood for about 5 minutes with no translator needed because words weren't relevant. She needed love. Physical love. A love from a big sister or a mom.. That's exactly what God placed me there for. That divine appointment He gracefully set up for us was.... Incredible. Absolutely incredible. My heart broke and as I stood there squeezing a ten year old girl named  Miralè I began to sob. Her pain and hurt hit me. This small girl has seen more than I could fathom, more than probably 95% of Americans can even imagine in her ten years. When we finally spoke Miralè told me that we had the same story. She had no father. Her "dad" did not love her like a dad should. To top everything off her mother tells her daily that he has a reason to not love her, that it is her fault that their family is broken and that she should have aborted her while she was pregnant. Miralè wanted change in her heart and in her family. 
At this.. I lost it. I had no words for her but the Holy Spirit, the real Father sure did.
I had to kneel down and get in this lovely girls face and tell her "You are worthy" "You are lovely" "You are wanted" over and over. Those words are something every girl needs to hear. Every human being needs to hear those words. 
I literally spent the rest of the time holding her. Holding this beautiful little girl and I kept reminding her of her beauty over an over. 
Saying goodbye made the tears stream again. I had to say goodbye to my brand new little sister. My little sister who I know I won't see until we meet each other in heaven. I don't know what life will bring Miralè. I don't know if her mom will love her again. I don't know if her dad will come back. But, one thing that I do know is that she wanted a new Daddy. She wanted the same Daddy that I have and He now lives inside of her. That is what makes this worth it. That is what I live for. The fact that this hopeless baby girl found hope in my Daddy today makes my soul jump for joy. 
If I were to say I didn't cry the entire way back to the bus I would lie. Or if I said I don't want to go back and take her away and hold her forever. But, I know God can hold her forever, maybe not physically but mentally, spiritually and He can love her more than I could ever.  
Miralè will be a name and face forever etched in my soul. The words she spoke to me as we were saying our very sad goodbyes.. "I never thought this day would come and I will never forget it." All I could do was laugh through my sobbing eyes and say "Me too".
Never in my wildest dreams could I have dreamt this day. I couldn't have thought of a better appointment. This makes me so thankful that I am on the team that wins and has a planner packed FULL of appointments, divine appointments, that will wreck us, change us and make us desire God so much more. 
I love my new little sisters and brothers that all accepted Christ today and one thing is for certain.. I cannot wait until the day that we all are on Jesus' dance floor praising him and doing "Gangnam style" with the Creator. 
Yesterday and today were only the beginning of something beautiful in Honduras. Revival. The changing of a nation. It may not be easy, it may wreck you for the normal but, boy.. Is it worth it.

We got back to the hotel, had dinner then team time. WOW. Team time is when we share what has been happening in groups at schools and everything then we praise God for it. One of my favorite girls kneeled down after a good bit of intense Holy Spirit worship. She was sobbing. I kneeled down next to her and just prayed for both of us. Tonight rocked my heart. A lot was going on in her heart that I had no idea existed until she pulled me and one more girl struggling with the same thing aside. We talked and realized we are all healed and free. We ARE one the WINNING team! This blessed my heart to see freedom. Freedom from God. A thing I struggled with as a junior higher be lifted from these girls. I love them so so much. 
I am so excited for the days to come. I cannot explain it. It actually makes me want to dance... But I was supposed to be asleep one hour ago. So dancing will not happen. Sweet dreams will though! That's for sure. ☺☺☺

  The beautiful scenery on the outside of our hotel. 

A sign for 1N1D at our hotel. 

Goofing off with my love Gloria. 
On the bus with Judah ☺
 

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